Friday

What day is today? So many people might say it's Valentine Day. But no, a talk about Vals on Valentine day is just too mainstream. Not going to add it anymore.

It is about Friday.

Like for example, how I hate friday.

People see it as an extraordinary thing. They think I'm a hardworker. That I love Monday instead. I don't really like Monday actually. It's just, I love Monday better than Friday, just like I love any other day of the week.

They just never know the truth.

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Hi, my name is Frysanthia. There's this special person who call me Fry. And there's should be a special day of mine, you can call it Fry-Day. But that day eventually never come.

I used to love Friday, because of that "Fry-Day" term. Like, Friday is my day. Something great will happen. Like, your handsome novel publisher said that he would set a meeting every Friday. And it turned out, he never came back to this village. I know I might not the greatest novelist. But I was motivated, highly motivated to finish my manuscript.

But yes that Fry-Day had ever happened once. It was on our fifth meeting. He told me that I was smart, that it was a great novel, that he admired me. He felt something different that he never felt for another girl before. And we walked down this park, only the two of us. So excited. And at the night we kept texting each other. We talked about the novel at first, but it was just going deeper and deeper. And all I knew was the next Friday, on February, he asked me out. We came to a very nice restaurant. And it was awkward after all. We couldn't speak anything, even after our plates were empty. Followed by a long silence, I couldn't help but felt that he was dying to say something he really wanted to say to me, but he couldn't do that. His eyes were talking.

"I Love you"

But that word never came out of his mouth, neither did I. So I decided I was done waiting. I was so disappointed, thought that Fry-Day would eventually come to me at last.

And there I was, left him at the restaurant, no voice, no last word.

I was secretly hoping, he would have those little courage to come after me, asked me to get back. But he was just there, stood still. And yeah, there was the last time I saw him. There was never be the Friday meeting. And I have never seen him in this village as well. Maybe he'd moved out. 

It is just another slice of a pain. There is still another Friday.
A long story though, when my best childhood friend, left to California to chase his dream. He'd gone like forever. And my feeling is never be the same after that. But here I am, stupidly waiting for the Fry-Day to come again, so that I can forgive Friday, so I can release my hatred of Friday.

Then this bright flash light come up nowhere, which dims and disappears a second later. I guess no one really notice it but me. I am shocked, wake up from this park bench. Search for the source of the light.

Is that real? Or just my own imagination?

A Guide to Happiness [Repost]

Happiness isn't something that you are born with. Happiness is something that happens through a series of experiences, habits and realizations over the course of your life.  This isn't a guide to try and fix people who are clinically depressed, but a series of things I have learned over my life that have shaped the way I look at life and the world. Below is list of bad habits you should try to correct only if you want to be happier. Hope to inspire.

1. Chronic Complaining 
The chronic complainer tends to always have something wrong in their life, their issues are more important than everybody else, and when you have something to vent about yourself, they aren't very interested in listening. Everybody gets dealt a hand in life. Some get dealt better hands than others, but at the end of the day this is the hand of cards that is yours. Anybody anywhere has hundreds of things they could complain about at any given time.  If you are a chronic complainer, quit whining and talk about the things that are positive in your life and focus on what is good.  If you have a problem, sit down and work out a solution. Constant complaining does nothing but push your friends away and keep you in that dark unhappy place. You have good in your life, find it, and share it.

2. Retail Therapy
Life is about experiences, however so many people get caught up in materialistic items that they forget what truly makes us happy. Sure the latest gadget may make you feel good for the evening, but that high is temporary, and you will be back chasing that retail high shortly after. Get out and experience the world. If you can't afford to get away, become a tourist in your own city. Skydive, bungee jump, go to the beach, recreational place, take a hike on an unknown trail. There are so many things you could be doing that will enrich your life that doesn't involve buying things. 

3. Talking Behind Others Back

“Great people talk about ideas, average people talk about things, and small people talk about others.” ~Fran Lebowitz

"We've lost our soul. What have we become? We take the weakest in our society, we hold them up to be ridiculed, laughed at for our sport and entertainment." ~Frank

Are you spending your time gossiping or talking about other people? Unhappy people get caught up talking about other people and having a tendency to judge others. "Look what that idiot is doing!. "Can you believe what she is wearing". Trashing somebody else might make you feel better for a moment, but all you are doing is masking your insecurities by trying to put them beneath you. Instead, try complimenting others, at first it might be hard, but it will make you feel good and will make you a much more desirable person to be around.

4. Holding Grudges
Harboring animosity towards somebody is like carrying around a backpack full of rocks. You don't have a problem carrying it, but it is a load on your back, and life sure would be easier if you could just take it off. Do yourself a favor, forgive. This doesn't mean you need to become best buds with whomever has done you wrong, but come to terms with what has happened and understand that people make mistakes. Forgiving will help free you of anxiety,  stress and depression and allow you to have happier relationships. Free yourself of the hate, and move on.

5. Making Assumption
Making assumption is a huge source of not only unhappiness but also anxiety for people. Stop doing it, ask that person for what's really happen.
Magnification Often times unhappy people have a tendency to blow small things out of proportion. Take a step back before you deal with an issue and try to look at it objectively. If you still aren't sure, ask somebody you trust what they would do in this situation before losing sleep over it. 
Minimization The exact opposite of magnification is minimization. It is when you take real problems and instead of dealing with them, tell yourself they are insignificant. Unfortunately you can only sweep your problems under the rug for so long before they explode. If this sounds like you, stop ignoring your ongoing problems, become actionable and take steps to fix them. Much like grudges, you will feel much better once these problems have been resolved.

6. Self Labeling
How you talk to yourself can seriously affect your self image. When you make a mistake, tell yourself "You made a mistake, next time you will do better". Saying things like "You are an idiot", or "You are a piece of crap" does nothing but lower your self worth. This might sound insignificant, but you need to believe in yourself to be happy, and calling yourself names prevents you from moving on after you've made a mistake.

7. Worrying What Others Think.
People do their hair a certain way, dress a certain way, and act a certain way in an attempt to fit in. All these things take so much energy yet in most circumstances the people, you are friends with people who do like you, who fit with you. If you did things in an attempt to impress them over and over again, you'll be tired at last. Stop doing things for other people and do things that make you happy. You can try to fit in but not for forever. Accept it, move on. Remember, you cannot make everyone happy.

8. Let Stranger Affects Your Mood
If somebody gives you the middle finger while driving, smile back at them and let them spend their energy being cranky. Don't let somebody else's bad day control the outcome of yours. If you have to deal with a grumpy person, kill them with kindness.

9. Letting Negative Thoughts in Your Mind
When these thoughts enter your head, immediately think of something else. You are actually able to choose what you think about, and the longer you entertain a negative thought, the more it is going to stay in focus. We are all human, and bad thoughts will enter our heads from time to time, but by being conscious of what you thinking about you can push them out of your head before they take you over.

10. Loneliness
If you are single and feel like you need a significant other to be happy, you're wrong. You can't be in a healthy relationship until you are happy independently. Using somebody else as a crutch for your happiness is a one way trip to an unhealthy relationship. If you are struggling to find a companion, stop looking in bars and stop looking online. Consider participate in a group activity that encourages socialization. You will meet like minded people who share more in common with you.

11. Worrying About The Future
The thing is, you have very little control over whether or not these things happen, so why spend your time worrying about it.  As long as you have a reasonable game plan and are living responsibly you should be focused on what is going on in your life now. Focus on what you are doing this second, if you hate it, do something else. Right now I'm looking outside, it is sunny and my cat is rubbing up against my leg. I couldn't be happier.

12. Waiting For The Future
When you are in high school, you think you will be happy when you graduate. Once you've graduated, you think you will be happy once you land a good job. Once you have the dream job, you think you will be happy when you are married. Next you think you will be happy when you have kids. Once you have kids, you think you will be happy when they move out of the house. Next it will be when they have kids. Before you know it you will have spent your entire life waiting for events to bring you happiness just to realize life (and happiness) has passed you by.

13. Lack of Hobbies
Before I even get started, your job, house cleaning and watching TV are not hobbies. Hobbies are activities that you can become passionate about. Happy people tend to have hobbies, whether your hobby is kick boxing, playing the guitar, or even basket weaving. Hobbies give you something to do with your free time and give you some time for you. This is time you are investing in yourself. Group hobbies also have the added benefit of giving you additional socializing time.  

14. Stop Learning
Learning new things not only gives you things to talk about in social environments, it also helps improve your self worth, which leads to happiness.

15. Eat Poorly
Making bad food choices or eating too much is not only bad for your health, it can make you feel lethargic, guilty, depressed and when done for extended periods of time typically results in gained weight. Unfortunately eating poorly is a vicious cycle. Often times people eat to self medicate when they are feeling down. They feel great for a few minutes while they eat their delicious treats, but then feel guilt afterwards, followed by lack of energy and reduced productivity. Eat right, look great, and feel great.

16. Wanting More Money
Unfortunately, the illusion that more money will solve all your problems and make you happy is nothing more than just that, an illusion. According to a Princeton University study, emotional well being  and happiness does rise with income, but only to an annual household income of $75,000. If your household income is already over $75,000. It might be time to reevaluate your happiness, more money is probably not going to make you that much happier.

17. Always Looking Above
You wake up right now, still having your heart beats, your lung breathes. You have food whenever you're hungry. You can walk, you have an education, and so many other grace. You have too many things you were never really see. Compare it to people who cannot even barely eat, who are in pain, severe illness, who are dying. Your life is wonderful regardless of other problems you might ever have. Be grateful dear.

18. Not Having A Goal
One of the most exciting things in life is setting a goal and accomplishing it. One study shows that people suffering from depression often set goals that they are incapable of accomplishing. For this reason, incremental goals are extremely important to build self confidence and positive reinforcement for the goal setter. Start small, and build up steam, you are the only thing that stands in the way.

19. Not Following Through
Quit making excuses and walk the talk, nobody is going to do it for you. Want to go back to school? Pick up the phone and register. Want to lose 10 lbs? Get in your car and drive to the gym. Today is the first day of the rest of your life. Quit letting the first step hold you back. 

20. Hate Your Job
The average full time work week is 40 hours. With two weeks vacation most people work 1920 hours per year. If you are going to spend 1920 hours per year working, please make an attempt to like your job. Since you will be spending 22.4% of your entire year (yes that includes sleeping hours) you better like what you are doing. Being unhappy for a quarter or your life just isn't worth it. Do something about it right now. Make a decision!

Original Title:
22 Habits of Unhappy People
Repost from:
http://www.infobarrel.com/22_Habits_of_Unhappy_People
 

Fry’s Madness

Suddenly, a bright light flashing from somewhere far. Then dims and disappears a second later. Nobody ever noticed it but the only one feels it, Frysanthia. She is just another ordinary girl. Not the most beautiful one of her village, not so special for most people, But yes she's a great girl, a very great friend. That's all about Thia. However, the life of this girl is so ordinary, so straight, so usual, so far from complication, conflict or problem. She's the girl that will always stick to the routines. Wake up in the morning, go to school, read magazine at bookstore on the way home, or sometimes play at park. So ordinary that nobody would ever guess that the next chapter of her life will take her into something beyond any expectation. Even beyond her own imagination.

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She's there today when all those flashing lights appeared. Sitting there alone on the park bench. Sunk at her deep thought of someone who once ever meant everything to her. No, if you’re thinking about boyfriend, you're completely wrong.

Giovanni, that's his name. They met at elementary school and have already spent a very long time together ever since. He's not the one said "I love you" to her. Not the one who kissed and gave her red roses. No, he simply would laugh at her loud, screwed up her diet with showing much delicious food. Meanwhile he also is the one who saved her life at the Mathematics Exam, or from her bad breakup. He preferred to call her with Fry instead of Thia, just because it sounds weird. He could be a stupid guy who laughed at her big stomach after lunch, then ran away when she chased him around the canteen. But he could be as vulnerable at the same time, when he was crying over the phone, telling the pain when he'd broken up with his ex before. They knew everything, every sorrow, every joy, every story about each other. Ya, he's Thia best friend ever! So many memories come up between them. The truth is, he has gone to California to chase his dream to be a successful singer, which he has achieved already. The first day he left was the hardest. They kept sending text message to each other. But it didn't last long. Their busy life at last had truly taken the best of them. As time goes by, Gio never replied the text, even other text that being sent by Thia. Afterall, Thia’s message was just pending, never come up to Gio's cellphone. They lost each other's contact ever since.

It doesn't mean Thia forget about him. Like today, alone at the park, she misses him a lot, she cannot resist. Even the flashing light that come up can only took her attention for a minute while she then convince herself that the light is just her imagination. That light is not real. She plants it at her mind dozen times.

Anyway, it's been one hour so Thia decides to get back on her way home. Taking her bag from the bench, she steps out her foot back to the road. She passes on the same narrow street she always walks in, with the green field full of pinus tree in right and left side. Through the same bookstore over there, which right now is full of people, most of them are watching their friends play some kind of- new action video game out loud. They look thrilled and scream a lot once their friend shoot at each other or explode something on that game. It's weird to see people opening video game corner inside a bookstore. It's actually not good to have those noisy things here, where people would rather read quietly.

The thing that catches her attention is not those noisy group of people. It's the magazine. Now all magazines are all in there with the same cover, Giovanni's face. Curious of what she has seen from outside, then she enter the bookstore and read one of those magazine's headline.

"Giovanni, founded disappeared from his own apartment at Costa Verde, California last night by his Manager. All his relatives said nothing about Gio's lost."

How it makes Thia shocked. She doesn't know what she has to do. Here it is, her best friend, the one she misses for an entire life, now become the headline of almost every magazines. Not because of his achievement, but because of a big lost. She cannot stand it but running home, crying herself to sleep.

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It's another bright sunny day yet she still finds her heart being taken away from her body. It's been a day since she read the news about Gio's lost at the magazines. Now it's not a hot topic anymore- another gossip & celebrity news come and go, fill up all the magazine's headlines. However, Thia still feels sick. There's nothing she can do, though she really wants to do something about it. She's full of sorrow and being more introvert right now.

Walking at the same street, suddenly a guy appear running from her back and bump on Thia till she falls down the street. What a harsh guy! He doesn’t stop to say his apology, not look behind even once. Thia can only grumble while trying to stand up again. What suddenly catch her attention that the harsh guy's wallet is accidently fallen, down the street and being left behind. Thia is such a kind girl that she then decides to chase that harsh guy to return his wallet.

"Hey you! Wait! Stop! You left your wallet there!" Thia shouted while running away to chase the guy.

The guy clearly hears Thia's voice and stops his step the second after. But not the wallet that he then grabs, it's Thia's arm. With his panic face, he pulls her up to run with him. Thia suddenly panic, tries to escape herself, pulls her hands backwards. But it's a small village in half isolated place. The street is so quite and nobody's there to help her. This guy has a lot more power and also a bigger body rather than Thia so he can pull her to follow her. But with Thia continuosly fights back, it makes him harder to start running again.

"Trust me please, you should follow me. Now it's dangerous for you to be here alone after he saw you chasing me and grabbed my wallet in time back there. I promise you, I'll tell you everything after this!"

And it's the first time Thia can see this guy's face clearly. Those face, she feels like she has ever seen him once before eventhough she is not sure where. His face is expressing a great panic, but seeing his eyes, Thia can tell this guy is telling the truth. So she runs with him down the street, hoping there would be other people whom she can ask for help soon.

But the street is as quiet as she never expects for. Remember that her cellphone isn't with her this time, it's accidently left at her desk in her room this morning.

The sound of heavy step echoing behind them. Thia looks back and finds there's the guy that now is actually chasing them. The guy with black clothes from head to toe carrying a huge black backpack. Big cap covers his head and also his face. It's terrifying. Thia & the guy start to run faster. The man behind them starts to be left behind again and disappeared.

Sun starts to set soon and Thia starts to loose her energy from running. Panic makes her cannot control her mind. Logically, she would run to her home, asking help to her family. But in fact, they run into random direction. Now the pinus tree in their left and right side, slowly disappear, replaced by a very wide long yellow grass field as far as they can see. No bookstore, no home on sight. Still no people, fortunately, also no sign from that terrifying guy who chased them back then. Minutes later, no light on Thia's eyes either. Everything suddenly become blur then dark.

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What happen to the light?

Why is it all dark here?

What did I do wrong?

Is it real? It isn't just a delusion, a total madness, is it?

You just found a wallet, you wanted to return it to its owner

Then suddenly your safe world.

The world that you've already known for dozen years

Now's changing into something that you have no idea at all

What did I do wrong?!

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Light slowly fills up her eyes. It is blurs at first when Thia starts to open her eyes. She finds herself sleeping above the green grass, near a big tree. Beside her, is the guy- the wallet owner, holding small-black-rectangle things on his hand with despair on his face.

"Ah thank God you’re awake!" The big relief comes to his face right away, followed by his next words. "I don't know where we are. But I think we'll be safe here for a while. I do really hope that guy is really left behind and cannot find us soon. You need to rest, here.." He gives Thia a bottle of half-empty-mineral water.

Thia drinks all of it quickly then she feels her energy is back to her body by the time. Now she starts to feel that she needs to know everything. So she asks the most basic question.

"Who are you and why is that guy chasing you all the time?" But many questions are continuing to come out in her head "Why did you bring me in? Are you out of your mind?? I never do something wrong to you?! Have I?! I don't even know anything, or you?! Why did you bring me in?!! TELL ME EVERYTHING!!" She ends her words with loud hysteria scream. Anger suddenly fills up her. Panic, scared, sad, despair, everything mixed up. Stuck in here, helplessly, with the guy that she barely even knows.

Shock expression appears on this guy face to see that sudden anger on Thia, but he tries to calm himself as fast as he can. Full of regret, he starts to apology so badly. Then he introduces himself.

"My name is Josh, just call me Josh. I'm so sorry about the thing that happen to you, in fact you have no guilt on anything. You have no idea how I could be so regretful of this. I'm so stupid to drag any other people into this. I'm so sorry" The tears of regret start to appear on his eyes.

"I'm sorry to disappoint you but I have no idea of what's going on either. The only thing I know about that guy, is that he's a very dangerous man. So here is the thing." He then starts his story. "The first time I met him was in a small bar on the border of this village. I don't even know who he is, never really seen him clearly either. He always wears that black cap covering his face all the time. At that moment, I'm blindly drunk that I didn't watch my step. I hit him and I didn't have idea of who did first. But being drunken, I felt like it's him who started everything. I couldn't be more surprised when I heard something fell very hard to the floor. It's his cellphone and also mine. I got down, took my cellphone then suddenly filled with anger because I found it no longer worked anymore. This cellphone." He point out the small-black-rectangle thing he held on his hand before.

"I tried to turn it on again when you still rest before so we could just call the police, but it didn't work out." The frustration expression comes up again on his face.

"Anyway, I'm so drunk at that time, so I was trapped into deep anger and punched him right in his stomach without even think. Then I ran. I didn't know why I was running. I was drunk, I just kept running. And he chased me. As time goes by, at last I suddenly came back to my consciousness. I felt stupid. Why I kept running all the time like a child. I was intended to just get back to him and said sorry and be responsible to all risk from my stupidity while suddenly, he blown up the bookstore! Though our distance is pretty far at that time, I heard clearly, the sound of big explosion and people screaming out there. I was panic. I still want to live and I have known that these guy is really dangerous. So I just kept running and I bumped on you. I was in a total disaster. This dangerous guy is really angry with me, he still chased and searched me everywhere. And he saw you there, he might thought that you are with me. He might kidnap you to get me or do something even worse, I couldn't stand it.." His words stopped there.

Thia suddenly has weird feeling about this guy. His expression by the time he finished his story, his eyes, it made some strange feeling. "Josh, do you know me? Do we ever met befo-" her words were cut by Josh, while he screams "RUUUNN!"

Thia turns back, the terrifying guy is right behind her. Either there's no time to run again or it's just her who unconsciously want to finish all of this, she doesn't move. She is just freezing, stands there, facing what they have to face.

"Don't go Fry, it's me" the guy suddenly takes his black cap away.

It's him, it's Giovanni, the one she misses the whole life. Standing there alone.

She cannot do anything but run so fast to him. Hugs him so tightly, she never want to  lose him again. Thia feels something that’s lost for a long time, now is back. The happiest feeling in the world, indeed.

Time might have stopped. But the sound of someone's yelling out there remind them that it's not just the two of them. It turns out, Josh was still stood there with the most shocked expression he could ever give.

"Oh my God! You are the singer on television!! Your face felt familiar. And Thia knows you that well?! And you're the one who chased me all the time?! What kind of life is that?!! What the hell happen??!" He doesn't even move a bit, apparently shock of what just happened.

Gio releases himself and give the looks as if saying "I want to tell you something later" to Thia while walking into Josh.

"I'm so sorry to make you afraid.. Josh." He sees confusion on Josh's face. "I know your name from your cellphone, here" he gives the exact same black-rectangle-thing to Josh. There's no difference with the cellphone Josh has all this time. Only that this cellphone is still completely working. The display is turned on.

"I want to give it back to you all this time. I turned it on and it showed me that it's not mine, it's yours. I just have no idea why you kept running away from me before" Gio tells Josh.

Josh's still in a huge shock, he doesn't move a bit. "But you blown up the whole bookstore! Oh God"

"It's the video game!" Thia suddenly has those all moment back on her memory. The last time she went there. New video game that is being rent in the corner of the bookstore. The explosion, shooting guns and everyone's screaming once their friend is being shot at that game.

Josh cannot be more shock than that. The huge coincidence which happens today is unbelievable. "And you ran the whole village just to return my cellphone?"

There's a long pause there before Gio replies "You've already saw and knew what we have to know. Now, I guess we all need to rest. I think I'll drop Fry home and you can go to your home as well" he turns his head back and call Thia "Fry, so let me drop you home or you want to go with him?" He clearly points Josh there.

"What? No! Why you even ask for that? I miss you so much Gio, you have no idea!" She cannot resist this feeling. Now she feels so safe, so happy, a feeling she never felt for so long.

"I miss you more Fry. This time I tell you, you really have no idea. I can tell but we need to rest. Now let's go home"

Gio accompanies Thia to go home while Josh walks into different direction.

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"These all coincidence.. that we can meet again. It's just.. a crazy day that I could never forget. Oh God, so you're just runaway the whole village just to return, Josh's cellphone?" Thia laugh at him loudly that she'd never done for a long time since they separated.

"Oh Fry, you still don't change, do you? You're so funny, still funny! The laugh that made my whole day, your stomach, the way you walk, everything, you still remember that, don't you? You always can make me smile again, you really do. Oh God. You really think that way? That I run the whole village just to return Josh's cellphone? No, I run for a way better reason.. It's you."

"What?! I don't understand. You meet me after you chased Josh for a while. Lalala~ don't flirt me. I'm good with that~ Huahahahaha!" She finds it's easy to laugh with him. It's not, when she's with anyone else ever.

"It's not you, I saw first. Don't you see, it's your photos on his cellphone that made my spirit come up again to find you!"

"What?! How could it happen?" Speechless, Thia cannot speaks much this moment.

"What?! You don't even know Fry? There's some photos of you on his cellphone edited into one, put by him as his wallpaper. I want to find out more but the phone is locked and asked for a password"

"OH MY GOD! I didn't even know him before Gio, I promise! Yes I know I did feel like I had seen his face somewhere, but I never really know him before! How could it happen?"

"So you don't even know Josh?" Smile and big happiness suddenly come up to Gio's face in the middle of his tiredness. "I thought that he's someone special. Thought that I'm being replaced already." He's hesitates for a while then continuing. "Listen, I feel so scary to tell you this, I'm scared that you will laugh at me, like you always did. I'm scared that you won't take this seriously, and our friendship.. I don't know. But I got another chance to meet you and I won't throw this chance away." He takes a deep breathe. "I love you. I love you Fry, so much I won't ever give up on us again. I don't know when it happens, it just happens. I lost my mind when I've gone to California. And my manager made me more suffered by taking out my old cellphone, erased all contacts, changed my number, didn't allow me to leave California and back to our old village. No he took those all away and said that I should concentrate more to my career. Cause the chance is very rare and God trust it to me. At the first time, I lived that way so hard, but then I realized, you know what Fry? I love you, I really do! I know you're the only girl in this whole universe that can make me happy, all the entire time! It's not the friendship, it's love-"

"I love you too Gio, oh God how I miss you, I never find anyone else that accept everything in me, the way you do. Knows every story the way you know. I found new friends since I moved here. But it's just different. It's friendship. Then I realize that my feeling to you. It's not a friendship not anymore. It's love-"

"I realized that too Fry, you know that! So I disguise myself. With all the black and big cap covering my face, so that people wouldn't know, it's me. I got some privacy back so I ran away from my apartment in Costa Verde, I went to our old village, your old house. But people said you moved out already and they didn't know where you moved. I didn't have my old contact at all, not even one. And here in village, when people barely have the internet signal, not even familiar with the thing like Social Media- like Facebook, so I really have no idea anymore. I just went into random direction, disappointed of myself. Why was I so scared to admit this feeling before. And I was being so late and you weren't there anymore. Full of despair, that night at the bar, I was about to give up when suddenly that guy bumped on me. His cellphone gave me new spirit. I chased him. With the proof on his cellphone, your photos, I knew, I would find you. And here we are."

He looks at her eyes and smile, so happily.

"I miss you, I love you too Gio. How life's here so hard, without you.. I don't even know why I can tell these things right now. Usually I'm just going to laugh at you, and push you like this if you remember" She pushes him away and laughs.

"You know what Fry, you made this all easier. Haha~ You know me right, I'm not that kind of guy, the romantic one, haha~ but I tell you, this time I will change. Now give all your attention to me, I will amazed you, huahahaha!" He grabs his backpack and searches something deep inside. "Here, I bring this from California, if you really think I'm not that kind of guy who give you roses, now you're wrong! Haha!" He give the red roses to Thia, it's so beautiful.

"Now you would be my girlfriend, wouldn't you?” Thia nods and smile. She looks at the roses happily.

"Ah ya, I almost forget. Don't worry of taking care the roses I gave you. It's plastic! Lalala, yeyeye, hahaha~" Gio had back as usual, laughs out loud and run away.

Now Thia is the one who chases him away. Right in the middle of the sunset. But this time, with the happiest feeling, ever.

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Woken up in the park bench alone, Thia took her face up from a big book on her lap. All the stories are written there. Some great imaginary short stories that she wants to publish. The fictional story, the extraordinary story that never exist on the real life. The manuscript of her second short story collection, it's all finished at last.

Yes, she is Frysanthia. A former writer in a small village who is frustrated of her ordinary life. So straight, so usual, so far from complication, conflict or problem. Unlike all her short stories which is full of adventure, that a lot of people have expected.

Suddenly, a bright light flashed from somewhere far. Then dimmed and disappeared seconds later. Nobody ever noticed it but the only one felt it, Thia. She'd fallen asleep while sitting there alone at the park bench to finish her manuscript, when suddenly those lights woken her up.

She so surprised, she woke up into her consciousness and turned back to the source of the light. There's this guy, she feels familiar with his face somewhere she doesn’t even remember. And that is the source of the light. The light from the small-black-rectangle thing he held on his hand. It's the blitz of his cellphone,

He used to take photos of her.

Rainy January

The last time January was a sunshine, it was like 5 years ago. You know, January has always been a raining season here, in Indonesia. But weather might be the last thing i want to talk in here, so yeah let's just spill everything. All things (beside weather) that basically happened in this January. So here we go.

Farewell
Well, this month maybe we can call as a month of farewell. 3 good friends at my office resigned all at once, 2 other moved to other division, which made the Fun Marketing almost empty. Others said "People come and go" but yah well i cannot admit that loosing 3 good friends at once is an easy thing.

Macbook charger
Office is the place where i come early in the morning and go home late at the night, just to do one simple thing. Openning my macbook and work. But apparently, it was not working. The battery'd gone and there's nothing we could do to return the electricity because you see, the charger was broken. Had gone to all macbook store at Jakarta, it no longer sold the suitable charger. Had gone to KZ (a friend of mine who innitially borrowed my 2nd charger) and even those charger had also broken. At last we finally found the place to bought a new one in E-store Ratu Plaza which cost 1 mio.

Blackberry Battery
At the same time with the destruction of my Macbook Charger, my BB battery has also knocked down. It was dead! But i've just bought that battery in December, so it was a big relieve to know that the battery still have its 3-months-warranty. We got back to Welcomme, made the report and being told to wait 2 weeks for the process. Oh well, still better than not doing anything, right? So just another quick information for anyone who need to contact me, don't do it via bbm ya, just text or WA, i'll be there :)

Dying Electricity
Meanwhile my Macbook and BB were having its own problem, the source to charge those things were also dead. What a surprise. So it was in the middle of the night when I first saw some kind of a splash of fire (do i name it correctly?) at the AC, then I heard the sound of big explosion came up from there. Then the electricity was just simply dead. My mom then called the PLN technician through phone. The PLN-man came and fixed everything but the AC, so yah we slept without it for a week. After all those hard moment (haha), we actually found someone who could help us to fix all things. So here we go, great as new. Well apparently that wasn't the closure. One night later, I saw fire (this time was a very BIG one) on the stecker, also at the same room. Then those familiar explosion's sound again, and all the electricity in my home perfectly died, and this time, there was no PLN-man available. So ya we slept in the darkness, accompanied by all empty-battery-electronics and a lot of mosquitos. The next day, the previous technician returned and fixed all things again. Hopefully it won't be repeated in the future.

Toothache
People say that toothache is better than heartache, but I tell you, that's not entirely true. Depends on the toothache I guess. Cause, you know, even toothache had some levels too. And mine is super-duper-high level, so you can say I had really suffered those whole time haha. 3 holes, 2 potential holes which was formed when I was a kid and liked to eat candy. And you know the solution, right? Dentist! And I guess no need to spend any word to convince you that going to the dental clinic wouldn't be such an exciting experience XD

Thrush
You wanna know what's worse than 3 holes in your teeth at once? It is, 3 holes in your teeth at once plus a big-severe-thrush (do I name it correctly? Well, simply said Sariawan in Bahasa). Well it is what it is, no need to explain the further pain XD

Flood
Well you see flood. It's huge, trapped you in the house,  with few packs of instant noodles only. And the dirty water in your feet might change every single stuff you have into a mess. That's that.

Stomachache
Imagine this. Even without trying, you have already had a hard way to eat because of your toothache and thrush. And now the flood, we no longer had high quality food. So here we were with instant noodles over and over again. Plus the PMS's coming. Superb!

Foot injury
At last the flood was coming to home. It sank all things, we should brought it up. And right after I started to lift those precious stuff, I stumbled across a big-sharp-wood, right into my knee bones. In my both feet. It is blue, it hurts.

So yeah, after all those things, you should be grateful, if you have a better January. And as for me, I should make these all as a lesson to be better, to be more cautious, to do more kindness, to pray and work harder. At least I'm not those lonely orphans who are in a big hunger crisis in Ethiopia.

You always have a positive side from every story though, if you really try to see. Well, in this case, i loose some weight ;)